Tick tock..

25wks today.. Another week down :)So close to my next goal of 28wks and I'll be so glad when i can stop the progesterone. My friends are organising me a baby shower for Nov 12th. I didn't want it after that date, I think it will be too close to the twins 3rd birthday. Not sure what state of mind I will be in.. I think on the 12th though I will be about 30wks pregnant so that's ok. The twins were 9 days old the day my baby shower was supposed to be with them.. Maybe that's why I 'm not too keen on having one.. Plus I think it's rude, inviting people to get presents. I just want it because it will be nice to catch up with everyone. Button is very excited this morning.. Kick kick all morning. I love it :)

24+3wks

This is the longest I have ever carried a baby.. Very strange to think about!

The biggest milestone yet!

Today I am 24wks, 2 days. The exact gestation I was when my beautiful twins entered the world. Wow. I'm here, I'm still pregnant, my baby is alive and kicking with no sign of delivering soon. What a fantastic feeling. :)

24wks!

Well today Button is officially viable. (Actually yesterday because according to the hospital dates I was 24wks yesterday!) It is such a relief getting to this point. I can't believe this time last pregnancy I was in labour and 2 days off my twins entrance into the world. I wish things were different then. I'm so glad they are different now. I feel absolutely confident that we can do this. My body can carry Button safely until my arms can..

I am getting BH contractions but funnily enough they aren't bothering me. They aren't painful and I think getting to this point means a lot of my anxiety and paranoia has gone. I am so glad for that! Last night I started back on progesterone pessaries after a blissful 4 night break.. Only 4wks to go til i can stop them totally. Yay! Feeling very very happy and healthy within my self and am really loving my growing tummy and gorgeous kicks. I am looking forward to meeting this bub!

Starting to become real...

Yesterday I went to the cardiac clinic, but also ended up seeing my OB Dr P. She is really really happy how things are going. We went over all the scans and she confirmed that my cervix is looking really good and it was probably just mucous in the 19wks scan. She confirmed that my swabs came back clear and I don’t have thrush, (over the weekend I had a lot of pink discharge, when I got checked out I was told I was grazed from inserting pessaries) it is probably the coating of the progesterone pessaries irritating me, so she told me I could give them a break for a few days. I’ll probably stop them for 3 or 4 nights then continue on til about 28wks. My next scan and OB app is when I’m 26wks so we will discuss ceasing them then. I asked Dr P if she was still looking at an early c section and she said yes. She said we could see how we are going if we felt comfortable we could push it back, but I doubt that will happen because I will be 38wks at xmas, and I doubt she would want to leave it til 39wks. I'm not sure if I want to end up in labour over xmas, and end up with an emergency c section..

This morning I went through all my baby stuff to figure out what I need for Button. I went through stuff I had from family day care years ago,filled a bag for the op shop. I just picked out the best stuff and I’m getting rid of the rest.

I went through Taite and Seth’s stuff too. I really don’t need a lot, I will use most of that, I have just kept a few outfits that I wont use and that I will keep just for them. I have picked Button’s going home outfit. It is an all in one but it’s long sleeved so I may have to buy something short sleeve, it will be hot in December.

I am starting to truly believe that Button will be coming home in about 14wks.. I can't wait to get the furniture out of layby, particularly the drawers so I can put the clothes and stuff properly away and not have it all stacked in the wardrobe!

I got really emotional going through the twins stuff. I was all good with the clothes but then I came across the congrats cards I got when they were born and also the books I used to read to them in NICU.. Brought it all back :( I miss my babes so much, I wish they were here to meet their sibling, who is LOVING kicking me :)

23 WEEKS TODAY!!

Yay!! Finally. At 23wks exactly I started labour with the twins, so today is definitely a milestone. 9 days to go until the biggest milestone of this pregnancy. I am feeling good, but just can't wait to be over the 24wk mark.. It's getting closer every day :)If my section is done on December 16th which was the date that had been thrown around, it means I have 13+6wks left. Less than 100 days. (Not that I'm counting!) With each day that passes it becomes more real that I could be mothering a live baby. It is what I have been waiting for my whole life.

Am I 23wks yet??

This week is going forever! I just want to get to 23 then 24wks without a hitch. I had a scan on Monday which showed cervix long and closed at 3.2cms. The scan was done by a consultant which made me feel more confident in the result :) The scan showed Button's estimated weight at 556gms. I know they aren't that accurate, but if it is, this Bubby will be big like it's brothers. (I know Taite and Seth were tiny, but they were big for 24wks)

If this time in my pregnancy wasn't so anxious, 22wks would be a great gestation.. I'm showing, feeling kicks all the time and I feel good. I think I am doing well to enjoy what I have everyday. I think the fact that it's spring and the sun is out has something to do with it too. Good weather always makes me feel good. I took some belly shots yesterday. Here they are :)

Getting there..

22weeks today, another week down, 14+6 wks to go.. Loving feeling Button move :) 2 more weeks and I have overcome the most major milestone of this pregnancy. I am feeling more fear the closer I get. I just can't wait to be past that 24wks..